Dear Shawn T and the Insanity team,
I love you, but we need to break up. I swear, it's me, not you... You are really great, I'm just not in the right place to have a relationship right now... You are going to make someone else really happy...
That is all of the cliche break up lines I could think of... bottom line, we are over. I do owe you an explanation though...
I love exercise. I love pretty much all things Beach Body... especially Insanity. After I had Cooper J with a combination of Insanity and weight watchers I dropped 30lbs and was in shape enough to compete in a triathlon. Yeah, I was in pretty much the best shape of my life. At that time, 3 weeks in to the 60 day program I tweaked my back. I recouped for about a week and then was back at it. I focused more on form and controlling my abs so I could prevent future injury.
Fast forward a couple years, another baby, and zero abdominal strength. Why wouldn't this be the perfect time to jump back into the Insanity program full force? I was motivated, was feeling stronger, despite sick kids, lack of motivation at times, missing a few days here and there, I was really trying to stick with it. I made it to week 3 again... it took more than 3 weeks to get there, but I made it. Last circuit of one of the last work outs of the week and BAM. There goes my back... again. Having done this before, I knew that if I just laid down it would continue to spasm and I would get stuck. (Those who have had a back spasm before understand being "stuck") But, I was determined to finish my workout. Because of all of my doctor training (NOT) and my previous stay at a Holiday Inn Express (NOT) I thought I knew what would work. I could not have been more wrong. Insert shocked face. I actually think that I made it worse by trying to push through. The last few days has been way closer to disabled than I have ever wanted to be. I could barely walk and I couldn't lift my kids. I had to explain to the boys that I was hurt and couldn't hold them, which nearly broke my heart. I had to be that wife that I never wanted to be and asked Eric to stay home from work because I didn't feel safe taking care of the kids alone. I was that hurt. VERY strong medication, rest, stretching, and a trip to the chiropractor... 4 days later I am finally starting to feel not broken.
The Chiropractor says I need to stretch and do yoga. Yoga... insert yuck face. I like to be out of breath and drenched in sweat, feeling like I might throw up at the end of a work out. I can say that I have never given yoga a fair shot though... it's always been a down day workout in the middle of some crazy week of intense workouts that most of the time I skip... at the most, something to just stretch out a bit. Maybe I need to refocus my mind and accept that right now, that is what I have to do. I am committed to NEVER hurting my back like this again, so here is me saying so long Shawn T and Insanity workouts. Someday I might be able to do it again, but for now... Yoga it is... Yay for yoga!! Sounds like I'm excited right??.. right...
S.
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